Can a person really "CHANGE"?
QUESTION..who wants to see "Knives In My Throat"? Need your help to let the film do the work it was designed to do. DO people really benefit from relating to anothers pain? Do we want to see someone else CHANGE and GROW? Suggestions, support, advise and interest! PLEASE leave your comments about the site or contact me personally.
My answer is absolutely! When I share my "shady" past it is very difficult BUT the beauty of it is I have evolved! I believe in positive change just as much as negative. The fact is we do change whether we know it or not, whether we pursue it or not and whether others see it or not.
Change is defined as : To be or cause to be different; alter.
My change continues to be exciting! I feel so much relief when I look back on where I have been and how I live today. Some of the "shadiest" things in my past are becoming gifts of enlightenment.
There was a time when I thought the abuse I suffered at the hands of others and myself made me an "untouchable". A leper of sorts, that only certain people of society would be willing to involve themselves with. Basically "less than" the desirable and pure human with more forgivable sins.
Well now residue of those feelings emerge (primarily in new relationships) however the change that has set in is that I feel like a part of humanity that is privy to insight others are not. Instead of feeling excluded I feel included in delicate human emotions, known only to those that have felt them.
How else do you "know" the pain of losing innocence without the experience? Can you sit with a young person and truly say "I KNOW how you feel"?
So even that loss is a gift of enlightenment! Recently I shared some of my uglier experiences with a friend. I was so happy to hear him say what I have said so often, "I'm sure those experiences contribute to who you are today." THANK YOU for seeing the beauty in all the ugliness of life. RESILIENCE.
There was a time when these words would sound impossible to believe. There was a time when I never thought I could truly love me, like me and appreciate me. It took some YEARS...Still not giving away my age, but here I am.
CHANGE is not only possible it is INEVITABLE!
ETERNAL GRATITUDE
posted by Unknown at 1:20 PM
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14. Am I close?
You are a beauty, clearly our ancestors have blessed you with an ancient look not seen often, at least on this continent. I will venture to say you are 20, though your eyes, your aura, seems older and wiser than this.
Are you born in Africa and moved here? I am not trying to be forward but your face, your wrapped head, are you a follower of the ancestors? Again, not trying to be funny, just honestly curious...
The_Reverend_Nye@yahoo.com
Thank you for your compliments. I must say however please do not overlook the beauty of African women on this continent. We have suffered to keep our lights shining in the midst of the storm called American Slavery but there are many of us here with ancient beauty. We are at times more difficult to notice or be gazed upon because of the lost painful memories that are still hurting all people of color that come to this continent. We represent a legacy that too many would rather forget. I am a native to this continent and my connection with my ancestors is strong. My Ancestors that never walked this land, the Ancestors that sold me to this land, the Ancestors that bought and abused me on this land, the Ancestors that toiled and made this land rich, the Ancestors that fought to get the chains removed from our bodies and the Ancestors that fought to free us mentally. My responsibility to them is great and so in honor of all my female Ancestors of this continent, I say to you please look twice before you say Ancient Beauty is rare. So many of the younger sisters here are following traditions of self hate without knowing why or how to stop. I was blessed by the Creator with instincts of tradition. The way I carry myself comes from that which is in me,remember even Mammy wore a headwrap. KEEP WRITING TO ME PLEASE
I must say that your words mean much to me. You are right, of course, I need to look again at the self-hate the sisters are taught, which is why they sometimes act like they do. I will keep that in mind.
I still say you are 20 though your soul is much much older than that, it seems. I will stop by often to read your fine words dear sister, if only there were more of you out there. Please keep up the good work and continue to spread the truth. It will pay off...
The_Reverend_Nye
May our collective ancestors continue to bless and protect you and those special to you
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